“Please just let me go, I’ve been so foolish for so long it just makes sense to be alone. Don’t forget me though, because I love you James, I’m sorry that i never took the time to let you know..”—Rosie The Magnificent by Jacob kraus (via thestarscantcomparetoyoureyes)
As I was songleading and roaming the circle during the song “Stones Under Rushing Waters”, I was looking around at the room. What I saw and the feelings that came over me are unexplainable. People were crying and the second a tear fell there was someone to reach over and hug them, people were coming together and singing as a community, and tears kept falling. The faces of my friends would look at me and smile while singing every time I went around. I was just so overcome with emotion (didn’t actually cry, gotta stay professional) but it was just one of those moments when you truly realize everything you have in front of you. Your community and how great is is. Your friends and how much you truly appreciate them being there for you. And just the moment. I cannot wait for Winter when I can songlead siyyum and just in general again. Getting everyone engaged and watching everyone just have a good time with their friends is so inspiration and I encourage you at your next kallah during siyyum or during song session to take a look around. There’s some pretty great things going on :)
These past few days I have been missing Kutz like crazy. Being back in the swing of things at home has gotten me thinking about what Kutz did for me. I am used to being the girl that has a few close friends somewhere and spends the rest of her time wondering if she branched out would she make friends with these other people, are they someone that I could become friends with? I am the person who is actually very outgoing when given the chance, but spends all of her time and energy waiting for the chance. I am the girl who is very confident in herself, but is always worried about how to transfer her confidence into social situations. At my old camp, and at home, all these worries are present on at least a daily basis, but what I experienced at Kutz was something completely new. Immediate acceptance. From day one, I knew that everyone I met I could become friends with. I knew that I could just be myself. I was just able to, for the first time, be myself, my complete self and not worry about anything. I have never experienced withdrawal from something like I am experiencing Kutz withdrawal. In one summer, I made a best friend/wifey/sister, became a leader, made friendships with people that I truly care about and I know care about me, became a better songleader, sang in the rain, dressed in crazy clothes, and just so much more. I would do anything to go back next summer, but Kutz truly changed my life and I miss every second of it. Well, I guess what better way to end this post than: Bro <3
It is a tree of life to them that hold fast to it, and all of its supporters are happy. It is a tree of life to them that hold fast to it, and all of its supporters are happy. Shalom, Shalom. Shalom, Shalom. Shalom, Shalom. Shalom, Shalom. - Camp Songs will forever be stuck in my head…
Going to Urj Kutz Camp one week from tomorrow! It’s sad that for the first time in 7 summers I won’t be returning to Camp Coleman, but I am so stoked to be able to experience the camp that I have heard so much about. Kinda nervous about going, don’t really know that many people, but I’m sure it will be legen….wait for it…DARY (Packed my Robin Sparkles costume, I’m sure it will come in handy at some point)
For the second year in a row I had something conflicting with memorial day weekend and was not able to apply to Camp Jenny. Besides my own sadness of not being able to go, I’m so stoked to know that right now in Cleveland Ga. at Camp Coleman (where I spend my own summers) so many underprivileged kids are getting the opportunity of a lifetime to have their own weekend long camp experience and that so many amazing volunteers are helping them create it. Can’t wait to see the pictures and posts about how amazing it was I can only imagine what it must be like to be a part of something like that!